A Different Valentine's Story

I am in Bangkok, Thailand. No one to hug, no one to kiss, no one to share this day with. All those I love are in Manila. My girlfriend, my family and my friends. It may seem lonely. It may seem blue. I will not go out tonight. It may seem like a pity. It is not that I want to stay here are be sad. I'm getting ready for tomorrow.

It is a BIG day! It may be MONUMENTAL . But then again, it may also be a disappointment. My colleague will be flying here in a few hours. Actually, he is in transit as I write this blog. We are going to meet people that could change my company's fortune here in Thailand. I will elaborate when I feel like it. People close to me know what I am talking about.

This maybe my big break. My first deal. My first closure. It is big for me. As a 22 year old man working on his first job, being given the power, freedom and responsibility of a "seasoned veteran" this is an experience from which will make me a different person.

Almost 2 years ago, I had problems. Problems encountered mostly by people twice my age. I felt so down. so blue. so humiliated. The feeling is still very much alive in my heart. I learned, I forgave, but I never ever forget.

I will use those feelings tomorrow and try to use them in this opportunity to make up for my past 2 vulnerable years.

I may win, and be proud!
I may lose , and be vulnerable.
But one thing is certain...
Lessons I will gain...

My Valentines will begin when I get back.
After my bags have been unpacked...
I am not sad, not a bit...
I'll only celebrate after my goals I meet!

But to those who share this day with people they love,
All the happiness I wish you may have,
A romantic dinner, an BLISSful day,
Happy Happy Valentines Day! :)

My |Time is NOW!

THREE DAYS BEFORE TAKE OFF!!!

Am I prepared? Definitely!
Am I surprised? Surely!

Fourth Trip to Thailand... It seems like home away from home... The first time I got there was an accident... I was not really meant to be there... Call it serendipity, call it coincidence, call it whatever you want... But this time I'll really go there for a purpose! This is my destiny! This is my life! And I will make the best of it...

Prepared...
My bags are not packed... But I am ready to go... I know my mission... It is not impossible... But it has to be accomplished! The stuff are prepared... My heart is prepared... My mind is all set!!!

Surprised...
Not everyone my age has the opportunity to handle such a responsibility... Some work in a typical office job... Some are still in school... Some work for their parents... But not me! I thought I would teach... I thought I would pursue a graduate school program... I thought I would run for office... But never in my wildest dreams did I ever thought of working away from home!

I made a lot of plans... I know they will be broken! I know they would perish... I will live everyday like it is my last... Take no prisoners... See you Thailand! I'm ready... Are you?