Torched!

Life is full of twists and turns. When you think you had enough troubles in your way, think again! There are more to come. If you asked me 2 years ago, "Cholo, what is your 5 year plan?" I can give you a concrete, workable plan without blinking an eye. Now, things changed and everything is a blur. Asked, the same question I will say, I don't know.

For the past few months I am living each day as it came. No plans. Hope for the best, expect the worst. A lot of fire torched my bones. A lot of pricks sliced to the soul. I've been to worst but when you are paralyzed every setback hurts more. Every tiny problem seems bigger. Every obstacle seems harder.

My life is not a telenovela. My life is not an exciting one. My life is not the kind of life you would like to live in. Sure I am still luckier than the ones who are in the slums. Sure other people have more to bear rather than I. But in some cases, I fell that they are even luckier than me.

Until now, I will live my life as each day comes. I don't know my purpose in live. After all, when I learn what it is and finish it, it will be the day I die.

Things may happen for a reason. Reasons that we will find out in the future. The ball will always roll. Sometimes you will be on top, sometimes you are in the bottom. Mine moves very slowly to go up. Or it seems faster to go back down.

What will happen to me, I don't know. I just hope luck will be back on my side sooner than later!